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12th-Jun-2010 09:38 pm(no subject)
Tired
Anou... I've been thinking about... my past a lot lately. And from what I have begun to remember I'm not really sure I want to remember who I am.

I don't think I was a good person...

I suppose, in a way, this amnesia is a good thing. It's giving me a chance to become... a better person.
And I hope I don't screw up.
15th-May-2010 09:11 pm(no subject)
Tired
I've been so busy lately, what with trying to re-learn my job all over again, and trying to find out who I am.

My insomnia also seems to be getting worse, so I've just been staying at the bar later, and later every night... I hope Gai doesn't think I'm trying to avoid him or anything, because I'm not.

I'm not trying to avoid anyone, it just seems to be happening.

Ah, this is all so exhausting...
23rd-Apr-2010 08:35 pm - Hmm
Contemplative
I realized today that I still hadn't really gone out to look around the city, and get my bearings back. So after Gai went to work this morning I took the day to go walk around the city, and try to get to know it again.

So I walked around all day, and visited all the places I thought might recall some memories. I ran into a few people today that talked to me about the things that happened when I was a child, and they told me they had known my family. But they never told me about my family, which was slightly confusing.

And so, around six when I was deciding to turn around and go back home I realized that I was lost, so I stopped by the park to think, and try to remember which way I'd come from, and a nice boy stopped and asked if I was lost, I told him I was, so he walked me back around town until I could remember where I was supposed to go. It was pretty embarrassing though!

He told me he was new in town though, so I asked how he knew the city so well, and he told me it was because he had insomnia. I kinda understood how he felt. I can't sleep at night most of the time either.

I do feel though, that perhaps I should try to get to know the city again in the morning. It might help with things. Like remembering, I still can't remember a thing!
5th-Apr-2010 03:52 am - Anou...
Reading
Ah... I guess I should try to pick up my life where I left off... other wise I doubt I could even begin to remember anything.

It's been eight days since I've forgotten every thing, and I'm slightly... aggravated.

Though I did actually find some legal papers in a pile of clothes stuffed down beside the bed a few moments ago, which was slightly interesting. At least now I can apply for a daytime job, heh.

I did get a call from the bar I obviously worked at though, and they said that some one they knew told them what had happened, and that my position there would be there when I saw fit to return to work... but I can't remember what position they're talking about.

It's kinda boring and lonely staying here alone all day...
29th-Mar-2010 04:06 am(no subject)
Reading
Just got off my shift at work... I was about to head home when one of the girls asked me for some help with some stuff...

I haven't left to go home yet, but I don't see why I should, I'm warm and comfortable here. I think I'll stay here tonight, or until they kick me out for the night.

I want to go to Gai's home, but it's cold sleeping alone after you've become accustomed to sleeping with other people...

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Don't say anything about me not coming home all night, Gai. If you noticed, which I doubt, I don't think you have a clue when I get home anyway.Let alone what I do in your house when you aren't home.

Also... when I finally did go home there was a woman in the house?

Shit. I need a fucking cigarette. Badly. And a drink.

...Really now, a woman?
22nd-Mar-2010 01:52 am - Thinking...
*sniff*
I hate not having a second job. It leaves so much free time open during the day. And after I'm done looking for work, I have only a few places to go. Won't get into that.

Sasuke! You little brat, lets get together Tuesday. Revenge time.

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15th-Mar-2010 02:22 pm(no subject)
Reading
Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
- Tag 12 everyone people from your friends list. maitoly_dynamic playin_withfire just_fine07 obiwonshinobi 1ruk4 surf_n_swords a_new_sunshine
  • beau_bete kamikaze_arrows schizo_love_boy surf_n_swords uchiha_nomore deidara_xx heiressinhiding



    SEPTEMBER:
    Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships.Systematic.

    ...could they have repeated 'sympathetic' any more?
    Seriously Guys... do this.

    Get your month here.Collapse )
  • 14th-Mar-2010 02:10 am - Biting my nails...
    Reading
    Uhg, I feel sick. I don't want to go to work. And... I just want to be alone right now, it doesn't help that I'm staying in someone's house. I could lock the door, but I dunno, he might take it the wrong way. But it isn't his fault. It isn't. It's mine.

    I just feel so... odd at the moment. And I feel like throwing up, but I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to.

    Private/Hackable if you care that much.Collapse )

    Oh Sasuke~~ I just wanted to let you know...

    I met your uncle.
    12th-Mar-2010 08:56 am(no subject)
    Crying
    okay... why the hell is it so unbelievably hard to get carpet clean?

    ...it was only like... half a glass of grape juice...
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